Starting the paperwork

On Saturday when we received the first round of paperwork from the agency, I looked through it and became overwhelmed. There were background check forms upon background check forms, physician statement forms for everyone in the family, detailed questionaires, etc.     I started to worry.  Would they say  my health wasn't good enough?  I mean, they ask for your BMI!  Would they say that our house is too small?  They ask for square footage!   

Luckily, my mom gave me a call and we talked it out.  Of course they want to go through our lives, our home, and our finances with a fine toothed comb.  This is about a baby; a life!   If I was a birth parent deciding on an adoption plan, I would want to make sure that I knew EVERYTHING about the family.   This paperwork isn't about the fact that I've struggled with my weight or the fact our house is more cozy than it is large.   This is really to make sure that we can take care of another human being for the next 18 years and beyond.    And the truth is - we can and we will.   Above all else, we have so much love to give and I know that someday, we will have the opportunity to share that love.

So last night when I got home from work,  Brandon (that's the Mr.) said, "So what paperwork are we working on tonight?"    We started filling out the forms to send into Human Services of each county we've lived in, police departments for the cities we've lived in, etc.   Even my 13 year old step-son has to have a couple background checks completed!   Today Brandon is picking up stamps so that we can mail all of these in and luckily, we have nothing to be nervous about with this step.  It's a good place to start.