So, lately, I've been looking at Brandon and thinking "what would our biological child look like?"
I've been feeling a little sad when I really think about never having a child with our genes mushed together.
Perhaps it's because we've had some friends who have recently given birth or perhaps it's because I look at his kids all the time and see parts of Brandon, but none of myself. His youngest looks so much like him, but his oldest only has little hints. I wonder what would happen if we did have a baby. Unfortunately, I will never get to see that unless perhaps we win the lottery! I'm pretty sure I've talked about this before and here I am talking again....
I feel at peace about our decision to forgo crazy medical interventions to get pregnant - not that they are CRAZY in general, but they would be much more involved than a we would want and we would have to spend a lot more money with little hope that it would work. I have felt very good about our decision to adopt, because I know that I will LOVE the child that is placed with me with all of my heart. I will fall in love with the baby the moment I see him or her. Heck, I might even fall in love as soon as we are matched with the amazing birth parent that chooses us. I am thrilled to have the opportunity to parent a child, no matter how that child comes to us.
Because I know that I will FALL IN LOVE - I am so excited that our profile is DONE!! I posted a link to it on the previous post and I am very proud of what I created for us. This means that at any moment, we could be matched and I am just in awe of that!
Now I feel like I want to buy everything that we could ever need for our baby. I've been researching strollers and it is so overwhelming! I'm hoping that Brandon and I can take a day to go to a few stores and try a bunch of strollers out. It seems like such a big deal to pick out those big items! If it were up to me, I'd fill our house with baby items immediately. That's how excited I am!