In the beginning, T went everywhere we did. We'd just keep him in his infant car seat if he needed to sleep. He would let just about anyone hold him and wasn't too fussy. We took him to friends houses, restaurants, shopping, etc. It seemed pretty easy really.
Fast forward to recent times. T is now 9 months old and is very mobile. He uses a car seat that stays in the car, he is on a better sleep schedule, he eats finger foods as well as bottles, he asserts his independence... and did I mention - he is MOBILE and VERY BUSY.
He laughs and plays hard. He fights sleep and cries when he is tired. Honestly, sometimes I cry with him.
There have been times where Brandon and I have had to fight to bring some focus back to our marriage so that we didn't forget about each other. There have been days where we are so tired that we barely make it to bed before closing our eyes.
There have been times when friends and family have gotten upset that we don't have as much time to give to them.
I have cried with fear that I am not doing enough and cannot be enough.
I will be honest and say I miss being able to just pick up and do what I want. We miss our friends. We miss our alone time. We have only a couple of evenings per month where we are "kid free" now and we try to make so many different people happy.. including ourselves. We pack as much into those moments as we can and sometimes we are more tired afterwards!
In the end though, he is SO worth it. He is worth every minute of lost sleep and every change in my life. I pray that my family and friends know I still love them and know that this isn't forever.
I will keep trying to do everything and be everything, because that's what so many moms do.